That's me as a child. My parents were hilarious. I often find myeslf in life with this same exact expression.


So, I'm blogging on this lovely site now. I was at Myspace but it's gotten to be too crowded for my liking. My thoughts today are a teetering a bit on the edge of anxiety. Why? I am not sure. Perhaps it's the dreams I've been having lately. They are really intense and disturbing and leave me tired for most of my day. However, I need to step out of this moment of self pity and realize that I have my family, my friends, my health, my home was not swept away by a hurricane, and I have clean water. Funny, my first post is a bit negative, but I'm more a realist as opposed to one that puts on a facade for the public.

I leave in 12 days to go to Richmond, Virginia, for training in my new career. I am looking forward to learning, but I am not looking forward to the hours outside of class. What on earth am I going to do? I'm really not one that likes to be alone. However, I find myself alone quite often. I wish sometimes that I was one who liked constant solitude but it's just not in my personality. (don't' get me wrong. Sometimes it's nice to have silence.) Plus, from what I hear it's like Spring Break '05 up there and I'm just not down with going to bars and all that self destructive behavior.

I feel so close to God lately. That sort of frightens me at the same time because every time I feel closer temptations grow stronger. Accountability is a good thing. I sort of hold myself accountable which is difficult to do a lot of the time because it's easiest to lie to yourself. I look forward to Kairos Bible Study Groups to start up soon. I wonder what book of the bible we'll study? Oh I'm so excited! Well it's off for round 2 at the YMCA for the day.

Yay rha for the Blogger website! I look forward to blogging here. Perhaps I'll post my old blogs onto here from my old blog site.