Choices : Shmoices

My new favorite show is How I Met Your Mother
on CBS. It is hilarious and it defines life as I know it. Watch it on Wednesday nights at 7:30. Tune in and crack up along with the true to life scenes.

Oh good lord life keeps me in stitches...especially lately. What exactly defines being "grown up"? If it's dull and monotonous then I'll stay youthful. My parents have and they've done all right!

Internet Dating

I didn't think many people actually did it, but internet dating seems to be a trend on the rise. Or it has risen and I totally missed the submarine.

A few nights ago I had dinner with a friend and she mentioned internet dating. She told me that she has dated several guys from dating sites and that she met her current pin-up the same way. And then yesterday a couple of women from my office were talking about internet dating over lunch and asked me if I had tried it yet. YET!?! I just really don't know what my opinion is. It felt as if "yet" meant I am required to give this technologically engineered match maker a chance.

I suppose I am just old fashion and expect that I'm just going to be knocked upside the head by l-o-v-e. I imagine that one cold winter evening, while hibernating at Barnes and Noble and minding my business, I and some tall, dark haired, intellectual type, will just bump into one another. We will say our pardons but lock eyes for a few blissful seconds (that feel like eternity) like we've just seen something familiar. Then after a totally heart pounding moment realize that we happen to be holding the same book. And from that springs a lifelong friendship/romance with the whole package: a future filled with ups and downs, grandkids and all. But does it ever really happen as you imagine it? I'll let you know if it does.

For now I'm going to investigate these internet dating sites and let you know what I find. But don't go looking for my face posted up on your screen...I'll be at Barnes and Noble, in non-fiction.

Life As I THINK I Know It...

Life is so fragile and I am realizing that more and more every second of my days. It is so easy to get all wrapped up in the pointless and stressful details of life. So many people in my life have delt with illness, critical accidents, and death this past year... it is just mind numbing.

For me 2005 has been a year of change, of growth, of a new perspective. There is a plan. I have choices that will get me to that plan. Every choice I made this year has gotten me to who I am today. I got something from every single choice I made and I don't regret a thing. I've never been one to regret a thing anyway... I wonder why that is? Perhaps it's because I think things through before I do anything. I'm rambling.

I am just speechless... well, because I really don't know what my future holds. I have never been so excited yet simotaneously so full of fear. Not the worrysome kind of fear, just the unknown... well, I really can't explain it other than to say it's partly a fear of falling back into old habits and ways of living... that's not to say that everything is perfect...I am far from it. And I don't expect to ever reach a point of perfection. The day I think that I might as well be dead. The complexity of it all is in my head but putting the thoughts on the screen is not as easy as one would think. It's a different world in this head of mine. Plus God is tying my tongue for a reason, I am sure.

Why did I feel the need to put this on my blog? On a public domain? Well it's not like many people read this thing so it really doesn't matter. If only the world could read what I don't publish! I wrote a rather lengthly article about Africa, the art, the lost traditions, and the westernization of the country the other day. I miss school.



Side note: I really wish Christmas wasn't so commercialized.